I would never have thought that I would say this but: MAN, I'M EXHAUSTED ( Read more... )

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I want to get away from here. My mind is only now starting to grasp the permanency of death.

I haven't stepped out of my room all day other than for sustenance. It's starting to feel like I don't have anything outside my room, beyond the internet.

What am I going to do with myself.

So many crazy and stupid things happening, guys. Some during the wake and funeral, one that just happened today. Geez. World, stop picking on me.

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feeling really really really sick. can't tell if i am fatigued, i got a flu, or i am depressed.

Today's the day we cremate (grand)mom. I can tell how hard this will be on me and my (grand)dad and my aunts and uncles and cousins ( Read more... )

Us grandkids are convinced that Mom is partying up in Heaven and beating Michael Jackson at mahjongg and at Scrabble. \ o /

First night's sleep without mom. Not a full 8 hours but it was suprisingly easier to talk about her. I have so many happy memories I can share to you guys about her. So many jokes that she told me. It doesn't hurt me to know that she's resting now, after battling her cancer since 1992 and her heart since 2008 ( Read more... )